20070414
Madness, i think my sickness ia approaching three weeks alreadi! RAHH
and my doc says the longer i don't get out of it, the worse my asthma is gonna be la...
My asthma aint that bad initially so I guess i shld better wake up my idea and control my sleeping time and diet, 1.42a.m now but i slept just now okay, haha. Oh yea, and after much contemplation, i utterly faked mt NS medical declaration la.. well partly because i was too lazy to fill in my history of past injuries, its so much that they will probably thing i am faking to get into some slack unit or something...
Hmmm initially wanted to really take up some kind of slack job, like clerk or driver, just like many of my nat. athlete friends, so that they can come out and train and do stuff too..Well but the diff is I'm gonna totally quit track after this yr, ridiculous to continue i guess! Anyway such jobs are only from 9 to 5! means u get to come home everyday! Well that was where my parents wanted me to really go... as they were worried for my safety la since i am freaking injury-prone, and they think NS is a waste of time..
Well... but den i thought about it, i really loved the days where we had sadistic/crazy training sessions during my sec school days(minus injuries), AS A TEAM, yea. The thing that makes it so fantastic is the team, and the way such trainings are designed to really push ur limits and mold you into disciplined individuals.. haha.. besides... i guess those around me would prefer to see me working in a more respectable unit as much as I myself would like to... right? noobqueen? LOL. Really hope that can either be a pilot or a commando :D well.. acty these are my dream since young la. lol esp. commando
Anyway was really happy for the class when they announced about the PW results, the ENTIRE CLASS GOT A's :D:D:D hahaha i think thats way cool.
Oh and today I saw this couple taking wedding photos in our school la, i think its rather unique and cool :D I guess both of them most probably met each other in HC during their JC years. Oh and instead of a usual blazer, the guy was wearing this white military uniform with a golden sword by the side. I think its really really damn nice la especially when it matches with the wedding gown too. Haha.. that uniform is probably only for those high ranking officers, but yea, i'm gonna wear it one day in future! yes i will!
Haha today was a shitty day at throwing, probably the worse training session of the ENTIRE YEAR in terms of performance after being sick for so long,
AND I got quite important a comp on SUN!
omg jiayou! madness hahah!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
posted @ 1:41 AM
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20070411
oh wells, today's 200m race wasn't very good for me already felt breathless and shit even before i started running la, sorta gave up whacking at the last 60metres. Got forth i think, but even if i am well i think i will most probably get third or if lucky 2nd la, so i guess its not that much of diff anyway haha... finally all the running events over la, they have been ruining my throws training and technique for the past few weeks ...
And on this sun there will be an external comp, should be even higher standards den nats since its an older age grp and poly ppl are allowed to take part too, So it will be really cool to see new competitors, but i guess i have to work for a miracle and get back my form in 4 days man, omgla.
Aiy and the weight of the throwing implement is heavier den my training weight, bad news for smaller size people like me, oh well. Do my best.
jiayoujiayou!
and get well!! arghh!!!
posted @ 8:25 PM
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20070410
one blow after another, stay strong, chill...
posted @ 7:22 PM
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20070409
today's sports meet was quite a disaster as expected...well is it because of the lack of fac spirit for apollo? Maybe... but actually that aint a very good conclusion based on what u can actually see today... Instead, you can conclude stuff about the accountability portion...it hurts. it bloody freaking hurts.
Its a little disappointing but okay to see people supporting the polo finals and not turning up for their respective sports which they have signed up for...
As long as it is an individual event, i guess skipping it probably will not cause much of an inconvenience to others. Yes faculty points are sacrificed, Apollo will lose, but its okay... the guys who have been training hard for the past few months seriously deserve and need our support... but it would be nice to get a substitute, if not its atill okay...
But for those in relays, please be reminded that the relay itself does not just involve you alone. Imagine how shitty you will feel, if you were the only one who changed and went to the field, frantically looking for your team, only to find out that your teammates have just vanished without a trace. I even specifically reminded all again and again that if you are part of a relay team and u are unable to make it for any reasons, YOU MUST get a susbtitute. Or else, the LEAST u can do is discuss with the entire team and make sure that each and every individual is perfectly willing to drop the race. It is my last event as sportsrep and i seriously don't give a shit about faculty points anymore, especially when some of those who are in my faculty ain't even responsible enough to inform their teammates and spend some time and effort to find a necessary replacement. Worse still if you encourage others to act like you, or if u just skip the event because u are just too plain lazy to exercise, or you decided to play some com games or go for shopping instead.
Acting blur and just disappearing into thin air after school without a trace, indeed, you have just found the easiest way out. But You never know how much it hurts and irritate others until you yourself have experienced it.
I ain't gonnna arrow at anyone in particular, but if u feel that you belong to this category, i believe that the least u can do is to apologize to those who u didn't account for, esp. your own team.
Oh and for those who went down today, thanks alot, and those who didn't went down but bothered to find a replacement, thanks a lot too, love you ppl, you guys really keep me going and brighten up my day (:
i may sound a little harsh cause i am in a rather agitated state now, yea... but i hope u get what i mean....
posted @ 11:30 PM
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20070407
life indeed is too short, far too short and worthless if we only pursue materialistic things that will part with us in time to come...
It has been a rather fruitful weekend especially during the special services that were held over the past 2 days...
Forgive&Forget
Something that i believe many people including me have been struggling to do.
Its sometimes absurd how we can get easily agitated and angered by small issues or things that have happened long long time ago. Forgive and forget for when others do wrong they are as blind and helpless as you are, and they do not know what they are actually doing. Being maligned, betrayed or backstabbed, those are perhaps the things that you and i can never withstand. But those are nothing compared to what our Saviour has went through...
Moreover, holding on to such negative thoughts will only weigh u down, and you can never be in a calm and peaceful state if you refuse to let go...
Well this is just something important that i have learnt during the sermons, guess it would be nice to share it... i guess that is something that is terribly hard to achieve but absolutely necessary to work towards...
Thank you for the cross...
posted @ 2:29 PM
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20070406
Yep sports day was not bad today... after the events i only felt some pain on my knee and nothing much on my ankle which is already a miracle..thank goodness...
(:
Followed by a little disappointment later on, but ended with something nice late in the night i guess, lol
posted @ 1:08 AM
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20070403
will someone just tell me why countless of stupid stuffs happen to me??? it was supposed to be just a few tries on the starting block for the 100 metre race, as i totally didn't noe how to use it, however i couldn't resist the temptation and kept doing more and more, despite my current shitty condition after not running for months.
and now i can feel my old injuries coming back, part by part. bit by bit..
my throwing coach told me never to train for sprints, due to my past injuries, just whack it during competitions after a proper warm up. After all i am a thrower.
I was just too stubborn... freaking stubborn.
yet i am having an external throws competition in 2 weeks time.
and a couple of relays and 100m on thurs....
how man.
and i am still down with cough and sore throat, really should take care of myself
posted @ 10:43 PM
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20070401
today's just a not too good day for me... well shit happens... and it is one of those days where things just don't go your way for many many particular reason.
perhaps i shld have just occupied myself, went with my church mates for lan gaming after church, though its an activity that i totally find it to be harmful and a waste of time...
well at least i shldn't have just went straight home after lunch when theres actually nothing waiting at home for me.
Perhaps thats the difference between my family and that of others.. we are relatively colder i think... huge age gaps between siblings and stuff... and we all lead our own lives and never have heart to heart talks at all.... at all
Perhaps thats the environment that has shaped the independent nicholas yong, always comfortable with solitude, never too reliant on those around and not trusting people easily. I used to think it was perfectly fine being alone, especially after a devastating incident that happened many years ago...However, as time passed, i came to know of so many who have showed me how beautiful life can be if we lead our everyday lives with passion, if we learn to trust and believe in others despite the potential risks of being heartbroken at the end of the day...After all, God didn't create all of us just to pursue our own selfish desires, lead our own lives and ignore everyone else including the Creator himself..
And after service today, my churchmate actually said something that really set me thinking extremely hard for the rest of the day. Something that also made me blog this unusually long entry. Initially he only asked why am i so busy these days...don't even spend time with them, like now not playing lan and stuff and going to the various events organized by the church, and yea so i just told him about the amount of school work, the track and fac comm stuff that i have to handle and the need to excel in my throwing since its the last year. And then he said something in a rather jokingly manner " You think you go Hwa Chong and study so hard can go heaven liao meh? You think God wants you to throw balls ah" and then he laughed and continued with the casual conversation...
Although it was no surprise that he didn't like my relatively mugger-like behaviour since he and almost all my churchmates are BIG time slackers in studies, i was dumbfounded when he actually phrase it in that way. He made me realised that though i was doing the right thing from society's point of view, doing the right things from God's point of view is actually ultimately all that matters at the end of the day.
Since young, i have been brought up in an environment which made me believe that excelling in the academics is the most important goal in life. I remembered being whacked and disciplined by my dad each time i did not perform up to his expectations, and his method worked to a certain extent. As i grew older i begin to realize that what he said was true, excelling in it is indeed an important goal, but at the same time I also begin to realize what actually is a more important or rather the most impotant goal. Leading A Godly life.
My dad has failed to take that into account simply because hes a non-christian... yep in case you didn't know, i come from a non-christian family, but almost all of my relatives are christians. And i really hope that one day he'll change. That itself I believe will be one of the hardest and most important goals too.
I know this is a freaking messed up post, but sorry i really can't organize my thoughts.... theres just too much... yeap.
ahhh feel much better after i have blogged, anyway the soundtrack for phantom rocks big time, cant resist singing along though my throat is not in a very good shape haha
posted @ 4:13 PM
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